The Geisha

 

This have been a while. As I mentioned at one of my other posts before I was together with a girl from another City. That was a few months later after I left my ex Wife. End of october 2019 I met a female in this other City. I knew her from a virtual Simulation called Second Life. I knew her already since a few years. We both speak romanian, I used to own night clubs in Second Life. She was a Dominatrix, I was just Money greedy. We both had slaves. I didn´t like it to have slaves. I gave a shit cause it´s very boring for me to tell others what to do. It also bothers me to hear "yes Mistress, as you wish Mistress". Those Guys just seek attention. For sure they are passive agressive. Cause a Person which seeks attention all the time is simply passive agressive. Anyways, we forced our both slaves to have Sex with each other.

I also just talked to her often. She gave me her Phone Number at one day. She made me many compliments, seemed a bit shy. I was talking to her once, then my Wife went suddenly into the room. She took my Phone from my Hand and checked the messages. Many hearts and kisses and stuff like that. "Who is this dumb slut"? She asked me. Went very angry, dissapointed. I was dissapointed to. I was not looking for an affair or anything like that. I cheated her very often in the past with other females and transgender, often prostitutes. At one Day I felt so sad about the way I act, I simply decided to stop it.

But things changed. The Second Life female told me that she has some Gay friends, they often do party, also with some females from her Job. I said ok, let´s meet. We met in the Cinema where she worked. Went into a Movie. It was "The Joker". I had several strong Drinks. We drunk them. She talked a lot. Sadly she sat on my right. On my right Ear I almost can´t hear anything. So I have to ask her often what she just said to me?

After the Movie was over we went to a Gas Station and I bought some alcohol again. Then we went to her home. I talked to her that I am a good guy, that I will take care of her. I meant it that way in that moment. Then I had Sex with her. Since I left my Wife I haven´t had much Sex. Just some Prostitutes here and there. She wanted me to sleep there. But I didn´t want to. I just wanted to drive home. That made her pretty angry. I knew that she had the Borderline Personality Disorder. But I was not sure what that exactly meaned. I found out soon. At that Day I just drove back home at 4 AM. I smiled like an idiot while I drove, laughed. "What´s your problem dude"? I asked myself. It seemed to be easy to get females. So why did I do so much drama that it´s actually difficult?

I used to have many fights with that female. At one moment I was simply great and the best of the best. Later I sucked, back and forth. She told me that she invited me cause she thought that I am Gay, so she wanted to present me some of her Gay friends. But I am into females and trans :) I really had rough Sex with her. I don´t want to go into details. Just that she screamed usually very loud and was able to squirt.

Since I used to play a Shemale in Second Life she knew that I like to dress up. I proposed her to try it together. She was not sure. She said that she doesn´t know if she would like me then. Yeah those words I meet in the past already. My ex Wife told me that she can´t love me this way. I should simply stop it. Even at the beginning she dressed me and we created Porn clips. She also said that I look better as female then herself. Well, the Borderline Girl seemed to like it. She used make up on me, gave me some of her clothes, she bought wigs. She started to buy me lingerie.

She also bought toys and a strap on. I allowed her to be active on me, before we switched and she became passive. In this way the relationship was very interesting. I remember at one day she asked me something I never will forget, she asked:" why do you always have to drink when we meet? Am I that horrible that you can see me only if you´re drunk"? I never thought about that. The question made sense. And I asked myself why I have to drink so often? I decided that I will drink less when I see her. Nowadays I lost my driving license since several months. Made my Life pretty difficult, depressions and panic attacks, but that´s another story.

I leasted 11 Months long with that Borderline Girl. I introduced her also to my parents once. I was affraid she could lose control, like she often did. But she was charming. This wig I still own, one of 2 wigs she bought me. I have them rarely on. Nowadays I prefer natural Hair colors. Like brown, cause my Hair is brown, so it looks more like it´s my own hair.

I don´t know what to think about this time. I mean in some way I had a lot of fun. My life then was much better then it is actually. I felt like things might get all right again. It was a short feeling, but at least I had it. Now that feeling has gone since long. I think that Girl loved me. But her rough disorder made it impossible to have a relationship with her. She said that I have Borderline too. I didn´t wanted to believe that. When she had her normal moments I really liked her. I could see her real soul. Infact she was a shy and unsecure person with a big heart. I could talk well to her in those moments. I mean the real moments, not the moments when Borderliner treat other Persons like Gods. That is fake. The moments when she became very angry and destructive I just hated her. 

I remember at one night I just wanted to leave cause she really pissed me off. But she went in front of the Door and didn´t want to let me go out. After a while I just putted her beside and went out trough the Door. But she holded my Hand. I could escape and just run to my Car. But I had to run along the car to get in. I jumped in, but as soon I was in the Car she was in there too. I just thought "wtf...seriously"? She begged on me to stay. That she will change. She will do anything for me. But I just wanted to leave. Since she didn´t want to leave my Car I decided to leave her in the Car and just went out to the Street. It was maybe 2 AM. On the Street I saw a younger Guy. I called him and said "hey dude, sorry, I know this sounds weird. But actually I have a girl in my car. I wanna drive home, but she doesn´t want to leave my car. She has a rough disorder. I don´t wanna become angry and beat her or stuff like that. Can you please help me"? He tried to help me. He talked to her for maybe 30min. But she was angry, said she doesn´t wanna talk to him. Said that she loves me and she doesn´t want me to leave. She said that I am a jealous idiot, cause we have the best Sex ever. Nobody did it to her that well, but I don´t wanna see that. That Guy gave up and said he has to go. The Girl said I can go, she just wanted to let me know how much she desires me. I felt sorry for her. So I decided to stay.

Things became more and more difficult with her. I feel sorry for this type of Persons. They want love, they need love like others need breath. I mean we all need love, but they need it a bit more. The sad thing is, they can´t handle it. As soon as they got love, they try to destroy it. Just to try to fix it later. A friend of me told me if those people are in a destructive mood, they pick up very ugly people to have Sex with. To prove themselves that they are worthless. And their partners are  worthless too in that moment. Of course they can be only worthless, cause just worthless people can stay with worthless people right?

So at one day I had Sex with her. Drove home at the day after. A few days later I felt something weird on my balls and cock. I looked down, went next to a Mirror. Damn it was red. A weird red color. It started to itch. Damn a genital fungus. I was so damn angry. I called her. "What have you done you fat ugly bitch"??? She said nothing. I told her that a genital fungus doesn´t come from the air. She said yes, but she has diabet and people with diabet get that from time to time. That is right, but I didn´t want to believe it. I just decided to leave her. It took me 6 months until finally she gave up. I blocked her number, but then she called me from other numbers. Or wrote me on facebook, instagram, she always find a way to reach me. Then I guess she found a new victim. Just as I had a new girlfriend she said hello again, but I blocked her and bye.